Dis-Testimony

Dis-Testimony

When I was in my early twenties, I thought I would conquer the world once I stepped out in faith. I would have a great testimony or testimonies to reach out to the unbelievers (of Jesus) around me – of God providing success despite my 

Personal Lessons of Yesteryear (Of 2022)

Personal Lessons of Yesteryear (Of 2022)

In the numbing cold, my tired body pressed on against the torrential rain to march forward. Unforgiving howls of the night sent shivers down my mind and heart. I walked through the deep dark forest like a headless chicken, and the journey seemed neverending. “Why 

Blink goodbye to 2022

Blink goodbye to 2022

Along with the church’s vision of rest and acceleration, my personal vision for 2022 is a year of multiplication and acceleration (as per previous years, I received this vision before I heard about the church’s vision). I look back at 2022 and felt it was 

Be in a community / Shedding of Old Wineskins

Be in a community / Shedding of Old Wineskins

Shared a private diary entry with a friend, because she played a part in what or how God was speaking to me about. A portion of it resonated with her and so I thought, perhaps more people need or want to read this and feel 

The will of God is not what I wanted

The will of God is not what I wanted

A friend texted me this encouragement: “I found it encouraging to see how you would commit all matters (money, housing etc) into God’s hands. I think God is in all decisions we make! Big and small, spiritual or so-called “secular”. Truth be told, I was 

Let go

Let go

“You need to let go,” my friend told me. I shook my head, “It’s so hard.” “Pray and get the shalom peace,” she said. My heart was troubled. I blamed God. God, you knew, why didn’t you… I was harping on the expensive mistake, on 

More than enough

More than enough

In the wilderness, the future seems like a lost cause. I could not see the land in the fog. Is there really a promised land we could root ourselves in? Or is it a less-than-ideal shelter we had to contend in? In my dented state 

Story: Never enough

Story: Never enough

Bs for all her subjects, she was an average student. “Why can’t you be like your good friend who scored all As?” “But there are people who did worse“, she retorted her mother. “Don’t compare yourself with those worse off but with those better than 

Faith, Flow, and Elijah

Faith, Flow, and Elijah

Faith. This juncture of faith and doubt felt similar to what I’ve experienced a decade ago. Quit without a job? What are you going to do? Years came by and left without a solid answer, or at least an answer satisfactory in the eyes of