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Thankful

Thankful

Thankful today because I feel like I’m kinder to myself. Usually I would be full of regrets and beating myself up after such situation. Thankful today because I feel like I am more graceful over my own mistakes and shortcomings. Perhaps I’m starting to accept 

Dis-Testimony

Dis-Testimony

When I was in my early twenties, I thought I would conquer the world once I stepped out in faith. I would have a great testimony or testimonies to reach out to the unbelievers (of Jesus) around me – of God providing success despite my 

Personal Lessons of Yesteryear (Of 2022)

Personal Lessons of Yesteryear (Of 2022)

In the numbing cold, my tired body pressed on against the torrential rain to march forward. Unforgiving howls of the night sent shivers down my mind and heart. I walked through the deep dark forest like a headless chicken, and the journey seemed neverending. “Why 

Blink goodbye to 2022

Blink goodbye to 2022

Along with the church’s vision of rest and acceleration, my personal vision for 2022 is a year of multiplication and acceleration (as per previous years, I received this vision before I heard about the church’s vision). I look back at 2022 and felt it was 

Be in a community / Shedding of Old Wineskins

Be in a community / Shedding of Old Wineskins

Shared a private diary entry with a friend, because she played a part in what or how God was speaking to me about. A portion of it resonated with her and so I thought, perhaps more people need or want to read this and feel 

Mindfulness: Being Present

Mindfulness: Being Present

I can time travel. Not physically though, although I wish I could. Travelling to another time period on earth is like travelling to another country, or rather, another multiverse, where the ways and things of life are much different from now. Anyway, I meant I 

The will of God is not what I wanted

The will of God is not what I wanted

A friend texted me this encouragement: “I found it encouraging to see how you would commit all matters (money, housing etc) into God’s hands. I think God is in all decisions we make! Big and small, spiritual or so-called “secular”. Truth be told, I was 

Let go

Let go

“You need to let go,” my friend told me. I shook my head, “It’s so hard.” “Pray and get the shalom peace,” she said. My heart was troubled. I blamed God. God, you knew, why didn’t you… I was harping on the expensive mistake, on 

More than enough

More than enough

In the wilderness, the future seems like a lost cause. I could not see the land in the fog. Is there really a promised land we could root ourselves in? Or is it a less-than-ideal shelter we had to contend in? In my dented state